Kisah Hati (Serious Talk)

Assalamualaikum, May peace be upon you, Sejahteralah ke atas kamu.

How were your days? Me?
Life is getting busier, day is getting shorter, weight is getting lighter, skin is getting more worse, dark circle is getting bigger.
Ya Allah! Tanda-tanda penuaan -.-'

Okay, please ignore my insecurities.

So today, I've this mood on sharing something that is more serious for me. Sesuatu tentang HATI.

Sebelum tu, do you know that in English, hati is liver, heart is jantung but why on earth that sweetheart is kekasih hati not kekasih jantung? Lulzzz sangat. Hahaha.

Okay back to this topic, hati? So semua orang pun confirm tahu yang setiap emosi, setiap perasan sayang, suka, marah, cinta, dengki, menyampah etc etc tu dikatakan datangnya daripada hati. Tapi setiap perasan dan emosi ni kadang-kadang tak mampu nak dikawal dan dibendung.

That's why for me Allah SWT, perancang sebaik-baik rancangan menciptakan sebaik-baik otak untuk manusia yang dalamnya adalah akal dan fikiran untuk kita berfikir. Anatominya, otak ni duduknya di kepala dan organ yang paling tertinggi posisinya. So confirm confirm lah dia lagi tinggi dari hati.

Sebab apa? Otak ni bukan je kerja dia untuk kawal semua system badan yang lain TAPI otak ni jugak yang sepatutnya digunakan untuk kawal segala emosi dan perasaan kita ni.

Contoh lah kan. Kalau hati kata marah! Marah! Marah! Marah! So datanglah fikiran yang rational dari otak kita ni untuk control perasaan marah tu. Sepatutnya lah tapi kadang-kadang kalau dah marah, memang tak fikir apa dah. Aku pandai cakap je ni. Haha. Biasalah, insan biasa.

Same goes to relationship. Macam mana kau letak kepercayaan penuh pun kalau tiba-tiba hati ni diserang kepelikkan keperasaanan yang menyebabkan kau mula fikir yang bukan-bukan contoh macam "Dia ni kenapa tak angkat phone" dan sebagainya memang boleh menyebabkan malapetaka lah gamaknya.

Sebab tu, otak ni perlu digunakan mengatasi setiap perasaan yang tiba-tiba mengundang tu. Fikir lah secara rasional. Jangan buat keputusan ketika sedang marah.

Women especially are born to be more emotional than men. Azalinya macam tu. Bukan nak kata yang lelaki ni tak emotional tapi diaorang ni rational lebih sikit dari perempuan. So ladies, jom lah kita cuba untuk lebih rational dalam apa keadaan dan keputusan pun. Baru lah kata orang kata women's power gitteewwww.

Bukan apa, actually this entry is something for my self reflection too. That-special-someone once indirectly said to me;
"Tiada lain yang dari hati hanyalah syak wasangka tapi yang membuat pilihan hanyalah fikiran yang rasional bukannya emosi"

So this is why I wrote this entry as a reflection sebab kadang-kadang kita pun tak sedar kelemahan diri sendiri. Rasanya inilah yang membezakan kita.

P.S : Insecurities kill, people.

Till the next post Insyaallah,
:)

Deeper Conversation

"Kenapa kita rasa lain macam sangat sekarang ni?"

"Lain macam yang macam mana?"

"Takut, marah, hati sakit, tak suka perempuan tu, rasa something. Susah nak describe."

"Rasa berdebar kuat?"

"Jantung rasa nak pecah."

"Jealous."

"Who?"

"You!"

"But why?"

"Sebab sayang."

"Tapi dari dulu pun dah sayang. Relax je."

"Sekarang dah takut hilang."

"Tapi bukan memang kalau sayang, kita takut dia hilang? Tak faham."

"You've ready enough to give all your love for the next step. For a better future for both of you. You've open all your heart just for that particular person"

"Hmmm so how?"

"Appreciate perasaan tu. Doa minta tunjuk jalan dan dipermudahkan"

"Tapi perasaan ni? Tak selesa."

"Hati, Allah yang pegang. Yakinlah"

Self Spirit

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone.

Somehow, I realised something in life.

Yes, you do have your supportive parents with you but at some points, you just couldnt tell them what actually you're facing with because you don't want to make them worry of you.

Yes, you do have your siblings with you but at some points, you just can't tell your problem with them because you know they won't be able to understand the whole and end up you as an older sister that have to think about their problems and kerenah. Anyway, I'm a kaklong of 4 active power rangers. (Read: adik-adik)

Yes, you do have your best friends with you but at some points, you just couldn't share your problems with them because you know they're having another big problems of their own too and you just don't want to burden them with your problems. Or maybe you are just someone who don't know how to share your problem with your best friends, like me.

Yes, you do have a special person with you but at some points, you just don't want to disturb that special person with your problems because you know how busy that person is and you don't want to make that tiny little hours that person have to spend with you is filled up with your stupid problems.

So, I realised that in the end you just have yourself to be with you and to support for your own self. Whenever you think that you're alone, you're actually have the greatest of all with you. Allah. Just pray, keep calm and stay strong.

Well, someone might looks so hyperactive and so happy go lucky but you don't know what's inside. She is smiling likes she always does but she's actually hiding the pain, alone.

Random

Assalamualaikum and hello everyone :)

It had been 2 weeks since the 5th semester started. Well, I'm officially a 3rd year student now. Big yeayy!

Next week will gonna be my first posting to hospital for a month. Kinda worry and afraid now. I don't know how everything will works in the reality of  this field that I'm taking. So, i wish my coursemates and I will do our very best. Fighting!

I am expecting a very tired and hectic days. I pray to Allah for everything to go smoothly. I mean my body system, my days , my emotions, my relationship, everything! I hope it goes as normal as it is. Amin.

Somehow i think this song really reflect my current feeling for tonight. I don't know why but it really does.

Wait for me by Theory of deadman
So here is a part from the lyric of the song.

"No one else knows the feeling inside
We hang up the phone
Without saying goodnight
'Cause it's the sound of your voice
That brings me home
It's never been easy to say
But it's easier when
I've gone away
Knowing that you... Wait for me
Ever so patiently"

Ragam

Pelbagai ragam insan bercinta,
Ada yang bahagia terasa manisnya,
Ada yang menangis terasa kelatnya,

Aku?

Juga punya kekasih hati,
Tapi aku lebih selesa mendiamkan diri,
Ibarat hidup di dalam dunia sendiri,
Mengangankan yang indah itu ini,
Namun ku tetap di sini,
Menjadi penonton setia,
Melihat gelagat orang bercinta.

The Real Kasih Sayang

Assalamualaikum! May peace be upon you.

How was it going buddies *High five* Saya busy, next week nak exam dah T_T

Today I wanna share with all of ya about ma beloved ummi and abah. Rindu sebenarnya. 
Dah sebulan lebih tak balik rumah. Rekod sepanjang 21 tahun hidup tu. Paling lama tak balik rumah dulu pun masa duduk hostel. Sebulan sekali je dapat balik tapi every Sunday takpun 2 minggu sekali abah akan datang pagi-pagi kat hostel untuk bawak anak sulung kesayangan dia ni balik rumah dengan alasan outing. Petang abah hantar balik. Masa tu jarak hostel-rumah adalah sejam 15 minit macam tu. Sayang kat abah. hihi.

Okay, lets go back to the right track ihiks -_-

My handsome abah bukan seorang yang romantik. Sangat tak okay! 
Tapi abah ada satu habit ni dekat meja makan yang saya rasa sangat lah menunjukkan kasih sayang abah dekat ummi.The way he expressed his love instead of saying I love You. 

Kalau belakang-belakang iolls tak tau lah tapi depan weolls memang tak pernah lah dengar abah cakap I love you ke, Abang Izan sayang lily ke. Hahaha.


Abah   : Lily, Masak apa hari ni? (sambil buka tudung saji)

Ummi  : Ummi masak kari kepala ikan je. (Lauk peberet abah) 

Nasi dan lauk-pauk pun tersenduk lah ke atas pinggan. Abah dengan tak sabarnya pun makan.

Abah   : Perrgghhhh!! Siapa yang tak belajar masak dengan ummi memang rugi lah.

Maka dengan mendengar ayat tersebut, ummi pun tersenyum-senyum sipu lah. Hahaha.
Kalau kita orang adik beradik ni tanya kat abah pun,

Me       : Sedap tak bah?

Abah   : Perrgghhhh!! Siapa yang tak belajar masak dengan ummi memang rugi lah.

Setiap kali, itulah ayat abah. 

Walaupun masa tu lauk iolls yang penat-penat masak dua tiga jam fikir nak masak apa last last confirm iolls tanya ummi jugak tapi mesti abah puji ummi jugak. hihi. 

Kecuali kalau lauk beli dekat luar, abah akan dapat detect. So, kantoi! Hahaha. 

Kadang-kadang ummi dengan sengaja akan suruh kita orang tanya kat abah. Kira macam orang tengah lah. hihi. Comel kan? 

Adik    : Abah, ummi suruh tanya abah, adik nak mintak duit beli........

Abah   : Perrgghhhh!! Siapa yang tak belajar masak dengan ummi memang rugi lah.

Disebabkan kita orang adik beradik dah selalu dengar, kadang-kadang saja je buka tudung saji jerit ramai-ramai 

Perrgghhhh!! Siapa yang tak belajar masak dengan ummi memang rugi lah.

Hihi :p

Till the next post, InsyaAllah

With love,
Nasyizan

Pray for Lahad Datu

Buatmu perwira bangsa, 

Gugurmu penuh semangat setia,

Setiamu tiada nilai bisa diganti,

Pergimu diiringi keberanian sejati.

Duhai isteri,

Tabahkanlah hati,

Duhai anak,

Hidup mu teruskanlah bergerak,

Abang pergi menegakkan hak,

Ayah pergi tiadalah berjarak,

Percayalah abang sentiasa di hati,

Percayalah ayah sentiasa di sisi.

Wahai anak bangsa,

Semangat kental janganlah terlebur,

Teruslah menyala bercahaya api obor,

Berhadapan si durjana jangan kau kecut,

Pegangan matlamat teruslah diikut.

-Nasyrah Norizan

 04/Mac/2013, 23:50

The March's story

Assalamualaikum everyone. 

My name is Mr March, Mr March the greatest. hihi. People called me handsome. Why? Just because. Ihiks. If handsome is too mainstream, you can call me Marchybum, Marlova, Marcho Mars, Marchain Malik or Marcin biber. Haha. I know, it is quite ridiculous to have that kind of name but well, I'm being me. The real me. ihiks ihiks.

Well, some people might see me as not that important, useless, bad or maybe too handsome? Haha but I'm so much important for this one little girl. When I said so much, it is thhhiiiiiiiiissssssssss much, you know? Thhhhiiiiiiissssss much. She is so in love with me.

Ohh!! You wanna know her name? Her name starts with N. 

Natadecoco? NO!
Natalie Portman? I wish but NOOO!
Nelly Furtado? Emm.. Quite nearer to the answer but still NOOO babeh NOOOO!

Hahaha! So now you are give up? Hihi. Her name is Nurul Nasyrah binti Norizan.

You wanna know why? Because I'm her birth month. This year, she's going to turn twenty one but you know what? She looks like a twelve-year-old children. Haaiiyyaaa! You don't believe haa? She really is, trust me. Hahahaha.

So, I wanna be good to her. I want her to be really really really happy with me. Why? Because I love her so much too. When I said so much, it is thhhiiiiiiiiissssssssss much, you know? Thhhhiiiiiiissssss much. hihi.
You haaa.. please pray for me and that girl okay. Hope we'll have many sweet moments for this year and thank you for spending your time chatting with me. Don't forget me okay? Mr March the greatest and so handsome. 

When I said so handsome, it is thhhiiiiiiiiissssssssss handsome, you know? Thhhhiiiiiiissssss handsome.  LOL

Till the next post, InsyaAllah.

With love, 
Nasyizan

Kursus Kahwin

 Assalamualaikum ^_^

 Ini last year punya cerita ya kawan-kawan. hihi
 Ketika sedang menikmati makan malam di meja makan, aku pun membuka lah cerita.

ME        : UKM kan ada buat kursus kahwin. Murah! dia bagi harga student. *Excited cerita*

UMMI    : Baguslah. Nanti senang students yang busy tak ada lah terkejar-kejar. Habis belajar 

               nanti pun umur masing-masing dah banyak.

ME        : Kawan kaklong ramai yang daftar nak pergi. Padahal diaorang sendiri pun tak tau

                lagi bila nak kahwin. haha

ABAH   : Umur masing-masing pun dah dekat nak masuk 21. Tak salah pun pergi, okaylah tu.

               Tak semestinya nak kahwin baru boleh pergi. Prepare awal-awal lah bagus.

ME        : Diaorang pun ajak kaklong. Kaklong rasa macam nak ikutlah. Tak salah kan bah?

               Okay kan mi? Kaklong pun nak pergilah dengan diaorang macam ni. Hihi.

Abah dan ummi terus stop makan and straight away pandang. Abah ambil cawan terus teguk air. Terperanjat kot? hihi.

Ummi     : Kaklong tak payah ikutlah. Kenapa tiba-tiba je nak pergi?  *Terus pandang abah*

Abah      : Kaklong tak payah pergilah sekarang. Habis study kalau kaklong nak pergi mahal

                 macam mana pun nanti abah yang support. 

ME         : Errrrrr... Bukan tadi abah ummi cakap eloklah, bagus, okay, bukan ke tadi?

Abah ummi terus sambung makan and the conversation end. Me? still blur blur sampai sekarang. Nampak tak dekat situ? Kiki.

So tamat lah cerita untuk hari ni. mihmih.

Till the next post, InsyaAllah.

With love,

Nasyizan

The Newbie

Assalamualaikum and good evening everyone.

How was your Monday? Life went well?
Insyaallah, Allah permudahkan.

Yeahh, as stated above Imma newbie.
Ohh, for having a blog is actually a new resolution of mine for 2013, but I just got the time now to finally publish something. hehe. Student kan? busy busy.
Tapi actually bagus jugak sebab hari ni pun sebenarnya a first day of my 4th semester.
So a good timing I guess? miahaha.

Well I might be new in this blogging world and actually I don't have any specific reasons for having a blog.
Hmmmmm macam mana eh? My new blog ni macam a new medium for me to share anything and everything to people.
Lebih kurang macam tu lah kot.
Tak baik kedekut ilmu ni, tak gitu? hihi.
Instead of sharing those stuffs dekat FB, twitter, tumblr or instagram lah.
Doesn't matter if it is as big as world current issue to the smallest personal problem of mine. hehe.

So everyone, please bare with me. *muka cute*

I'm a malay, so obviously I'm going to use manglish lah kan? hihi. I'm sorry if my english and malay words are worse.

So till the next post InsyaAllah.

With love,
Nasyizan